How many times have you all seen photos of me sat about in my flat, posing on different piece of furniture? Well this is going to the last time, because tomorrow is the move day. I remember the first ever time I shot in here, when there was hardly and furniture, just one chair, a sofa and a rug. I have lived here for just over 13 months, and it's been the most amazing 13 months of my life. When I moved into this place I thought there would be no way I would be leaving in a years time, mostly because the stress of moving had been so intense it was something I wanted to avoid for at least another two years. But after about 9 months here I started to feel really differently, mostly about how much I wanted an office which would have such a big change on my life. I realise I am talking first world problems here, but working and living in one space has left me finding it harder and harder to ever have some sort of balance or switch off, and those of you who watch my vlogs will know that my bedroom is mostly a wardrobe. So the hunt began for a two bed place, where I can hopefully split up my work and life a little more, have more focus on them both, and generally feel I am in a happier space.
Now like I said, the past year has been the best of my life, and there are so many amazing memories I have from this incredible apartment. I have loved living here, all the features, the furniture I have filled it with - anyone who knows me knows just how much I love it. One thing I think I failed to do was make it feel like a sanctuary. I think it is partly due to travelling so much, I have spent so much time here not fully settling back down because I know I am off again so soon. That combined with finding my way with working for myself and living on my own, which has been a constant cycle of self-motivation that has sometimes overwhelmed me. I have learnt so much from it. In my new place I will always fully unpack, even if I am going somewhere again in two days time. I will make sure my work stays in the office, and doesn't creep into my living room so I can fully relax and actually enjoy an evening on the sofa.
I have experienced more in the last year than I ever imagined in this flat. Nights in with friends getting blind drunk while sat on the sofa, or just days sat watching endless films. I have worked here with amazing creatives and friends, shot so much content and used my home as a reflection of my style in a way I never thought I would be able to. I have spent hours sat on my chairs staring out the window with a cup of tea watching the world go by. I have had many early mornings working and late nights at my desk. I have had days where I have felt so empowered by how much I do on my own, loved my own space and hated anything that compromise it. I have had days where I have felt lonely and lost and tried my best to focus on my work because I don't know where else to put my head. I have walked into here loving the silence after a busy day, I have walked in here resenting the fact that there is no one here to share my day with. I can't tell you the rollercoaster of emotions, only that I have felt more in the past year than I ever have before, and so much of it has taken place in this little flat.
More than anything, it's been a representation of how much I want to pinch myself. When I spent those early teenage years wishing I was older, I don't think I ever imagined my life would look like this, and for that I am so so grateful. I know every time I walk past this flat I will be filled with nostalgia for the year I have lived here, and the year I lived bang slap in the middle of Notting Hill will be something I will love to tell my children about (thankfully I have lots of photos to share with them too).
Once again I feel like I am moving onto a new chapter, which is both daunting and amazing. After a year of huge, huge changes and growth, I really want to create a new space where I feel more settled. I want to create even more amazing memories, work even harder from a new home, and hopefully have a year ahead that tops this one. Living alone is the biggest learning curve I have ever known, it totally highlights your independence but also the points in which you are hugely dependant on others (because I think we all have that). I will miss this place more than I can tell you all, and I keep feeling super teary at the thought of leaving here for good!! but I am so excited for the new chapter, and so thankful to have you all with me for it. I hope it will be even more amazing!
PHOTOS BY ISAAC MARLEY MORGAN